Physics says: go to sleep. Of course you're tired. Every atom in you has been dancing the shimmy in silver shoes nonstop from mitosis to now. Quit tapping your feet. They'll dance inside themselves without you. Go to sleep. Geology says: it will be all right. Slow inch by inch America is giving itself to the ocean. Go to sleep. Let darkness lap at your sides. Give darkness an inch. You aren't alone. All of the continents used to be one body. You aren't alone. Go to sleep. Astronomy says: the sun will rise tomorrow, Zoology says: on rainbow-fish and lithe gazelle, Psychology says: but first it has to be night, so Biology says: the body-clocks are stopped all over town and History says: here are the blankets, layer on layer, down and down.
Copyright © 2007 by Albert Goldbarth. Reprinted from The Kitchen Sink: New and Selected Poems, 1972-2007 with the permission of Graywolf Press, Saint Paul, Minnesota.
It turns out however that I was deeply Mistaken about the end of the world The body in flames will not be the body In flames but just a house fire ignored The black sails of that solitary burning Boat rubbing along the legs of lovers Flung into a Roman sky by a carousel The lovers too sick in their love To notice a man drenched in fire on a porch Or a child aflame mistaken for a dog Mistaken for a child running to tell of a bomb That did not knock before it entered In Gaza with its glad tidings of abundant joy In Kazimierz a god is weeping In a window one golden hand raised Above his head as if he’s slipped On the slick rag of the future our human Kindnesses unremarkable as the flies Rubbing their legs together while standing On a slice of cantaloupe Children You were never meant to be human You must be the grass You must grow wildly over the graves
Copyright © 2018 by Roger Reeves. Originally published in Poem-a-Day on June 19, 2018, by the Academy of American Poets.
The city’s streets are densely shelved with rows
of salt and packaged hair. Intent on air,
the funk of crave and function comes to blows
with any smell that isn’t oil—the blare
of storefront chicken settles on the skin
and mango spritzing drips from razored hair.
The corner chefs cube pork, decide again
on cayenne, fry in grease that’s glopped with dust.
The sizzle of the feast adds to the din
of children, strutting slant, their wanderlust
and cussing, plus the loud and tactless hiss
of dogged hustlers bellowing past gusts
of peppered breeze, that fatty, fragrant bliss
in skillets. All our rampant hunger tricks
us into thinking we can dare dismiss
the thing men do to boulevards, the wicks
their bodies be. A city, strapped for art,
delights in torching them—at first for kicks,
to waltz to whirling sparks, but soon those hearts
thud thinner, whittled by the chomp of heat.
Outlined in chalk, men blacken, curl apart.
Their blindly rising fume is bittersweet,
although reversals in the air could fool
us into thinking they weren’t meant as meat.
Our sons don’t burn their cities as a rule,
born, as they are, up to their necks in fuel.
Copyright © 2016 by Patricia Smith. Originally published in Poem-a-Day on July 21, 2016, by the Academy of American Poets.
The time of birds died sometime between When Robert Kennedy, Jr. disappeared and the Berlin Wall came down. Hope was pro forma then. We’d begun to talk about shelf-life. Parents Thought they’d gotten somewhere. I can’t tell you What to make of this now without also saying that when I was 19 and read in a poem that the pure products of America go crazy I felt betrayed. My father told me not to whistle because I Was a girl. He gave me my first knife and said to keep it in my right Hand and to keep my right hand in my right pocket when I walked at night. He showed me the proper kind of fist and the sweet spot on the jaw To leverage my shorter height and upper-cut someone down. There were probably birds on the long walk home but I don’t Remember them because pastoral is not meant for someone With a fist in each pocket waiting for a reason.
Copyright © 2018 by Ruth Ellen Kocher. Originally published in Poem-a-Day on October 19, 2018, by the Academy of American Poets.
—kept losing self control
but how could one lose the self
after reading so much literary theory?
The shorter “i” stood under the cork trees,
the taller “I” remained rather passive;
the brendas were angry at the greed, angry
that the trees would die, had lost interest
in the posturing of the privileged,
the gaps between can’t & won’t . . .
Stood outside the gate of permissible
sound & the wind came soughing
through the doubt debris
(soughing comes from sw~gh—to resound . . .
echo actually comes from this also—)
we thought of old Hegel across
the sea—the Weltgeist—& clouds
went by like the bones of a Kleenex . . .
it’s too late for countries
but it’s not too late for trees . . .
& the wind kept soughing
with its sound sash, wind with
its sound sash, increasing
bold wind with its sound sash,
increasing bold—
From Extra Hidden Life, among the Days. Copyright © 2018 by Brenda Hillman. Reprinted with the permission of the author and Wesleyan University Press.
—So, one by one I pull the lice from your red hair.
One by one I try to split them with my fingernails;
no use, they hold on
as they were taught to. Still, they glisten
like heavenly sparks in the morning light
of the bathroom.
I have to pull extra hard on many of them,
use the turquoise, fine-toothed comb
provided by the pharmacy.
They hold on with all their strength:
each has its individual hair to love,
each pus-colored creature
has a genius plan for not leaving you.
I fling the lice out in the air,
thinking how the world despises them,
the other mothers of Berkeley,
and the teachers who have not appreciated their beauty.
And though I’ve had to poison them again,
I’ve always understood them,
I also wanted to get that close,
wanted to cling to you in just that manner,
even go back to heaven with you so we won’t
have to address this problem of the separate
you-and-me,
of outer and inner.
I hope we will have our same bodies there
and the lice will have their same bodies,
that each hopeful tear-shaped egg
will be allowed to cling forever, not be pulled
between love’s destiny
and a lesser freedom—
From Bright Existence. Copyright © 1993 by Brenda Hillman. Courtesy of Brenda Hillman and Wesleyan University Press.
When the danger of fire has passed,
the children (even when wanting to text)
form letters with pencils,
tracing gray skin around
the unsayable while geese honk ~
overhead oñ-oñ-oñ- in their ~ ~
wedge of funny adults. The children ~ ~ ~
try to be normal, though ~ ~
no one knows what normal is …
In nearby gardens, the unwanted
dandelion: Taraxacum officionale. A large
squash prepares for harvest, its S-shaped
stem with moisture bent.
Children braid languages & some
are praised for confidence but who
praises the garden for all that breath?
The cheerful mild constant anxiety
of your childhood turned
to writing, then meaning came
with its invincible glare—; the page
had borders but no limit—
& you loved letters then,
their breath allowed not
to decide as it curved between
skin-bearer & the being said—
From Seasonal Works with Letters on Fire (Wesleyan University Press, 2013). Copyright © 2013 by Brenda Hillman. Used with permission of Wesleyan University Press.
It's as if every demon from hell with aspirations toward interior design flew overhead and indiscriminately spouted gouts of molten gold, that cooled down into swan-shape spigots, doorknobs, pen-and-inkwell sets. A chandelier the size of a planetarium dome is gold, and the commodes. The handrails heading to the wine cellar and the shelving for the DVDs and the base for the five stuffed tigers posed in a fighting phalanx: gold, as is the samovar and the overripe harp and the framework for the crocodile-hide ottoman and settee. The full-size cinema theater accommodating an audience of hundreds for the screening of home (or possibly high-end fuck flick) videos: starred in gold from vaulted ceiling to clawfoot legs on the seating. Of course the scepter is gold, but the horns on the mounted stag heads: do they need to be gilded? Yes. And the olive fork and the French maid's row of dainty buttons and the smokestack on the miniature train that delivers golden trays of dessert from the kitchen to a dining hall about the size of a zip code, and the snooker table's sheathing, and the hat rack, and those hooziewhatsit things in which you slip your feet on the water skis, and the secret lever that opens the door to the secret emergency bunker. Smug and snarky as we are, in our sophisticated and subtler, non-tyrannical tastes, it's still unsettling to realize these photographs are also full of the childrens' pictures set on a desk, the wife's diploma proudly on a wall, the common plastic container of aspirin, and the bassinette with the scroll of linen shade at the ready in case the sun is too powerful: reminders of how a graduated continuum connects these überoperatically fat interior lives to our own. We all desire "more" and "better," Melville adds that final "e" to the family name, and Faulkner adds the "u," in quest of a signified gentility. My friend Damien (fake name) won A Certain Literary Award, and at the stellar after-ceremony party, in the swank hotel's swank atrium, he found a leggy literary groupie noshing caviar under a swankily lush mimosa, and in under an hour his own swank room could boast the golden statuette, the evening's loveliest woman, and the silver serving platter of five-star caviar, and if you think this story's moral lesson is that satiation is ever attained, you don't understand the protoknowledge we're born with, coded into our cells: soon soon soon enough we die. Even before we've seen the breast, we're crying to the world that we want; and the world doles out its milkiness in doses. We want, we want, we want, and if we don't then that's what we want; abstemiousness is only hunger translated into another language. Yes there's pain and heartsore rue and suffering, but there's no such thing as "anti-pleasure": it's pleasure that the anchorite takes in his bleak cave and Thoreau in his bean rows and cabin. For Thoreau, the Zen is: wanting less is wanting more. Of less. At 3 a.m. Marlene (fake name) and Damien drunkenly sauntered into and out of the atrium, then back to his room: he wanted the mimosa too, and there it stood until checkout at noon, a treenapped testimony to the notion that we will if we can, as evidenced in even my normally modest, self-effacing friend. If we can, the archeological record tells us, we'll continue wanting opulently even in the afterlife: the grave goods of pharaohs are just as gold as the headrests and quivers and necklace pendants they used every day on this side of the divide, the food containers of Chinese emperors are ready for heavenly meals that the carved obsidian dragons on the great jade lids will faithfully guard forever. My own innate definition of "gratification" is right there in its modifier "immediate," and once or twice I've hurt somebody in filling my maw. I've walked —the normally modest, self-effacing me—below a sky of stars I lusted after as surely as any despot contemplating his treasury. The slice of American cheese on the drive-thru-window burger is also gold, bathetically gold, and I go where my hunger dictates.
From Everyday People by Albert Goldbarth. Copyright © 2012 by Albert Goldbarth. Reprinted with permission of Graywolf Press. All rights reserved.
The drizzle-slicked cobblestone alleys of some city; and the brickwork back of the lumbering Galapagos tortoise they'd set me astride, at the "petting zoo".... The taste of our squabble still in my mouth the next day; and the brackish puddles sectioning the street one morning after a storm.... So poetry configures its comparisons. My wife and I have been arguing; now I'm telling her a childhood reminiscence, stroking her back, her naked back that was the particles in the heart of a star and will be again, and is hers, and is like nothing else, and is like the components of everything.
From To Be Read in 500 Years by Albert Goldbarth. Copyright © 2009 by Albert Goldbarth. Used by permission of Graywolf Press. All rights reserved.
Turns out bacteria communicate in color.
They warn each other in teal
or celadon & humans assign
meaning to this, saying they are distressed
or full of longing. The wood rat
makes a nest of H’s; it hoards
the seven tiny silences. Crows in the pine
can count specific faces like writers
who feel their art has been ignored.
My father spent his life thinking
about money though he knew
it causes most of this stupid violence,
& he thought of me as a sensible person;
you have the chemical for sensible, he said.
There was no tragedy between us,
unlike how poor Joyce wrote
that his daughter turned away
from that battered cabman’s face, the world.
i didn’t turn away because i don’t know
where it is, it is all over, & when it seems
pure nothingness has come to pass,
i know another animal prepares itself
nationless, not sensible;
thinking of it helps a little bit—
This poem originally appeared in American Poets, Spring-Summer 2016. Copyright © 2016 Brenda Hillman. Used with permission of the author.
We had a grief
we didn’t understand while
standing at the edge of
some low scrub hills as if
humans were extra
or already gone;—
what had been in us before?
a life that asks for mostly
wanting freedom to get things done
in order to feel less
helpless about the end
of things alone—;
when i think of time on earth,
i feel the angle of gray minutes
entering the medium days
yet not “built-up”:: our
work together: groups, the willing
burden of an old belief,
& beyond them love, as of
a great life going like fast
creatures peeling back marked
seeds, gold-brown integuments
the color time
will be when we are gone—
From Extra Hidden Life, among the Days. Copyright © 2018 by Brenda Hillman. Reprinted with the permission of the author and Wesleyan University Press.
a haibun
Every week for about a decade some of us at school have been standing at lunch hour to protest drones, racism, state killing, the death of species & so on. We stand under a live oak while people walk by on their way to lunch. We hold up the signs. It’s an absurd situation & it changes nothing.
Sometimes the good doctor Ali brings a boom box with Bob Marley & we dance ineptly on the pavement. The changes fall together. Positive & negative fall together as Bob Marley sustains us near the tree. Cesar Vallejo dances as a flea on the back of a squirrel. Blake & Baraka dance as lithophilic microbes inside the rock. We have no proof that they don’t. The science moths dance in the live oak & go about their work of being powdery. The protest is absurd but i admire these forms of absurdity. When the revolution comes, the polite white mothers in the Moraga Safeway will still be shopping for sugary cereals & barbeque sauce. When the time comes, some will rise & some will dance & some will lay our bodies down.
From Extra Hidden Life, among the Days by Brenda Hillman. Copyright © 2018 by Brenda Hillman. Used with the permission of Wesleyan University Press.
a prose ballad
i only held it once but thought about it often as you think about those times when your life had stood both loaded & unloaded
One brother knew of its existence having seen it where it languished in the famed green storage unit from which it had been transferred to the bank-box but we never quite knew when
Information our father had & something he was squeamish about or proud of at the same time the way Protestants are about genitals
We believed it was a Luger—maybe taken from a soldier—in the War our father trained for but didn’t ever get to because he was wounded in the knee—“sustained” is the word they use—sustained a wound—in infantry maneuvers before his men were mostly killed after D-Day—
When his ashes in the desert grave were lying we took the weapon from the bank-box
i put it quickly in my handbag to get it past the teller—the holster was the smoothest leather—brown & heavy —the yawning L-shape of the Luger Google says Georg Luger designed in 1898 —the holster smooth as the jackets of German soldiers in the movies & what had they done to make the cowhide smooth like that & what had they done to the cow
We thought of burying it in the desert but if you Google burying a firearm it changes to a search for buying a firearm
You can also look up how to load a semi-automatic weapon on YouTube where a white man with thick hands & a wedding band shows you how to check for rounds in what order & tells you how to handle it with your dominant hand
We couldn’t take it to the cops even in my handbag though Arizona is open carry & you can take it anywhere in public but the cops can shoot you if you take your gun to their station
One young Tucson cop named Matt agreed to come to us & checked the magazine & said it was unloaded— looked upon us with excruciatingly mild pity — said this relic might be worth some money & stroked it the way some boys do
i couldn’t tell what the brothers were thinking— it felt like a tragedy but reversible—our father’s ghost stood like a tall working summer like Hamlet’s father’s ghost appearing only in the day & good naturedly telling people not do the killing but still trying to control the actions of the play
You can think about ghostly word weapons nonstop Let’s just take a shot at it She was going great guns He loved her but couldn’t quite pull the trigger Better to just bite the bullet Kill an hour or two
& for some reason maybe sorrow for our father’s power/lack of power i felt a twinge when my brother whisked the tiny heavy out of there —my life had stood a secret little hiddenly shameful semi-automatic firearm & When at night Our good day done i guard my Master’s head
My younger brother sold it for $600 at a Tucson gun shop—one of those outfits where the master paces behind the counter offering advice on collecting & is so proud of his stash
It was a Tuesday i think—a Tuesday inside history where America is lost—& what should we do with the cash
From Extra Hidden Life, among the Days. Copyright © 2018 by Brenda Hillman. Reprinted with the permission of the author and Wesleyan University Press.
In her room at the prow of the house
Where light breaks, and the windows are tossed with linden,
My daughter is writing a story.
I pause in the stairwell, hearing
From her shut door a commotion of typewriter-keys
Like a chain hauled over a gunwale.
Young as she is, the stuff
Of her life is a great cargo, and some of it heavy:
I wish her a lucky passage.
But now it is she who pauses,
As if to reject my thought and its easy figure.
A stillness greatens, in which
The whole house seems to be thinking,
And then she is at it again with a bunched clamor
Of strokes, and again is silent.
I remember the dazed starling
Which was trapped in that very room, two years ago;
How we stole in, lifted a sash
And retreated, not to affright it;
And how for a helpless hour, through the crack of the door,
We watched the sleek, wild, dark
And iridescent creature
Batter against the brilliance, drop like a glove
To the hard floor, or the desk-top,
And wait then, humped and bloody,
For the wits to try it again; and how our spirits
Rose when, suddenly sure,
It lifted off from a chair-back,
Beating a smooth course for the right window
And clearing the sill of the world.
It is always a matter, my darling,
Of life or death, as I had forgotten. I wish
What I wished you before, but harder.
From New and Collected Poems, published by Harcourt Brace, 1988. Copyright © 1969 by Richard Wilbur. All rights reserved. Used with permission.