Dog knows when friend will come home
because each hour friend’s smell pales,
air paring down the good smell
with its little diamond. It means I miss you
O I miss you, how hard it is to wait
for my happiness, and how good when
it arrives. Here we are in our bodies,
ripe as avocados, softer, brightening
with latencies like a hot, blue core
of electricity: our ankles knotted to our
calves by a thread, womb sparking
with watermelon seeds we swallowed
as children, the heart again badly hurt, trying
and failing. But it is almost five says
the dog. It is almost five.
When the bottle of hot sauce shattered in the kitchen he stood in the doorframe, shook his head at the mess. Not worried if I was injured, mostly curious at what else it was I’d broken. You are so clumsy with the things you hold, he never said. The red stain on my chest bloomed pungent, soaked any apology. I used his shirt, the one I slept in, to wipe the counter and pale-colored kitchen floor. That night and the next for a straight week as he prepared boxes to leave I hunched and scrubbed the tiles. Couldn’t rid myself of the things that I’d sullied, of the look he left behind.