^{translated from the Spanish by Leo Boix}

I have built a garden, as one makes
the right gestures in the wrong place.
Misplaced—not an error, but a being elsewhere,
like speaking with the mirror’s reflection
and not with the one who looks through it.
I have built a garden to speak there,
elbow to elbow in beauty, with death—always mute
yet active—working at the heart.
Leave the luggage behind, she repeated, now that your body
glimpses both shores—there is nothing,
the precise gestures
to let oneself go, to care for it,
and to be, the garden.
Treasure what you lose, she said—this death
speaking in flawless, distant Castilian.
What you lose, while you still have it, is the sole companion
that draws you close to the far shore of death.

Now language may loosen itself to speak.
She who never could wield the scalpel of horror,
though furnished with tools for doing, marvellous
from ominous. Terror is only digestible to the eye
if beauty bears it. Look at the blind hole:
precise and loving gestures, without reflection,
before the mirror in which all operations
are emptied of meaning.

To have a garden is to let oneself be had by it,
and by its eternal movement of departure. Flowers, seeds, and
plants die forever or renew themselves. There is
pruning, and there are moments, in the sweet dusk of a
summer afternoon, to see it exceeding itself,
while the shadow of its fall announces itself
in the dense brightness of March, or in the
dreamless sleep of the subject when it dies, while
the species that contains it never ceases to forge itself.
The garden demands, of its gardener, that she watch it die.
It demands her hand to cut back and to reshape
the naked earth, turned over in the beds
beneath the frozen night. The garden kills
and asks to be killed, in order to be a garden. But to make
correct gestures in the wrong place
dissolves the equation, uncovers páramo.
Love reclaimed through difference, like
dark blue sky against sorrow. Royal
drop of the storm in whose embrace you reach
the farthest shore.  I wish you
were here, love, but you are—a gardener and not
a garden. You unearthed my heart from your bed.

He construido un jardín …

He construido un jardín como quien hace
los gestos correctos en el lugar errado.
Errado, no de error, sino de lugar otro,
como hablar con el reflejo del espejo y no
con quien se mira en él.
He construido un jardín para dialogar
allí, codo a codo en la belleza, con la siempre
muda pero activa muerte trabajando el corazón.
Deja el equipaje repetía, ahora que tu cuerpo
atisba las dos orillas, no hay nada, más
que los gestos precisos
dejarse ir para cuidarlo y
ser, el jardín.
Atesora lo que pierdes, decía, esta muerte
hablando en perfecto y distanciado castellano.
Lo que pierdes, mientras tienes, es la sola compañía
que te allega, a la orilla lejana de la muerte.

Ahora la lengua puede desatarse para hablar.
Ella que nunca pudo el escalpelo del horror
provista de herramientas para hacer, maravilloso
de ominoso. Sólo digerible al ojo el terror
si la belleza lo sostiene. Mira el agujero
ciego: los gestos precisos y amorosos sin reflejo
en el espejo frente al cual, la operatoria carece
de sentido.

Tener un jardín, es dejarse tener por él y su
eterno movimiento de partida. Flores, semillas y
plantas mueren para siempre o se renuevan. Hay
poda y hay momentos, en el ocaso dulce de una
tarde de verano, para verlo excediéndose de sí,
mientras la sombra de su caída anuncia
en el macizo fulgor de marzo, o en el dormir
sin sueño del sujeto cuando muere, mientras
la especie que lo contiene no cesa de forjarse.
El jardín exige, a su jardinera verlo morir.
Demanda su mano que recorte y modifique
la tierra desnuda, dada vuelta en los canteros
bajo la noche helada. El jardín mata
y pide ser muerto para ser jardín. Pero hacer
gestos correctos en el lugar errado,
disuelve la ecuación, descubre páramo.
Amor reclamado en diferencia como
cielo azul oscuro contra la pena. Gota
regia de la tormenta en cuyo abrazo llegas
a la orilla más lejana. I wish you
were here amor, pero sos, jardinera y no
jardín. Desenterraste mi corazón de tu cantero.

^{(after Stephen Hawking)}

Do you sometimes want to wake up to the singularity
we once were?

so compact nobody
needed a bed, or food or money—

nobody hiding in the school bathroom
or home alone

pulling open the drawer
where the pills are kept.

For every atom belonging to me as good
Belongs to you.   Remember?
There was no   Nature.    No
 them.   No tests
to determine if the elephant
grieves her calf    or if

the coral reef feels pain.    Trashed
oceans don’t speak English or Farsi or French;

would that we could wake up   to what we were
—when we were ocean    and before that
to when sky was earth, and animal was energy, and rock was
liquid and stars were space and space was not

at all—nothing

before we came to believe humans were so important
before this awful loneliness.

Can molecules recall it?
what once was?    before anything happened?

No I, no We, no one. No was
No verb      no noun
only a tiny tiny dot brimming with

is is is is is

All   everything   home

When in the morning’s misty hour,
When the sun beams gently o’er each flower;
When thou dost cease to smile benign,
And think each heart responds with thine,
When seeking rest among divine,
                                    Forget me not.

When the last rays of twilight fall,
And thou art pacing yonder hall;
When mists are gathering on the hill,
Nor sound is heard save mountain rill,
When all around bids peace be still,
                                    Forget me not.

When the first star with brilliance bright,
Gleams lonely o’er the arch of night;
When the bright moon dispels the gloom,
And various are the stars that bloom,
And brighten as the sun at noon,
                                    Forget me not.

When solemn sighs the hollow wind,
And deepen’d thought enraps the mind;
If e’er thou doest in mournful tone,
E’er sigh because thou feel alone,
Or wrapt in melancholy prone,
                                    Forget me not. 

When bird does wait thy absence long,
Nor tend unto its morning song;
While thou art searching stoic page,
Or listening to an ancient sage,
Whose spirit curbs a mournful rage,
                                    Forget me not.

Then when in silence thou doest walk,
Nor being round with whom to talk;
When thou art on the mighty deep,
And do in quiet action sleep;
If we no more on earth do meet,
                                    Forget me not.

When brightness round thee long shall bloom,
And knelt remembering those in gloom;
And when in deep oblivion's shade,
This breathless, mouldering form is laid,
And thy terrestrial body staid,
                                     Forget me not.

“Should sorrow cloud thy coming years,
And bathe thy happiness in tears,
Remember, though we’re doom’d to part,
There lives one fond and faithful heart,
                        That will forget thee not.”

Peonies, heavy and pink as ’80s bridesmaid dresses
and scented just the same. Sweet pea,
because I like clashing smells and the car
I drove in college was named that: a pea-green
Datsun with a tendency to backfire.

Sugar snap peas, which I might as well
call memory bites for how they taste like
being fourteen and still mourning the horse farm
I had been uprooted from at ten.
Also: sage, mint, and thyme—the clocks
of summer—and watermelon and blue lobelia.

Lavender for the bees and because I hate
all fake lavender smells. Tomatoes to cut
and place on toasted bread for BLTs, with or without
the b and the l. I’d like, too, to plant
the sweet alyssum that smells like honey and peace,
and for it to bloom even when it’s hot,

and also lilies, so I have something left
to look at when the rabbits come.
They always come. They are
always hungry. And I think I am done
protecting one sweet thing from another.

The time will come
when, with elation,
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror,
and each will smile at the other’s welcome,

and say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was your self.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you

all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,

the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life.

(War Time)

There will come soft rains and the smell of the ground,
And swallows circling with their shimmering sound;

And frogs in the pools singing at night,
And wild plum trees in tremulous white,

Robins will wear their feathery fire
Whistling their whims on a low fence-wire;

And not one will know of the war, not one
Will care at last when it is done.

Not one would mind, neither bird nor tree
If mankind perished utterly;

And Spring herself, when she woke at dawn,
Would scarcely know that we were gone.

I wonder what I’d do
               with eight arms, two eyes
                              & too many ways to give
                                             myself away

                                             see, I only have one heart
                              & I know loving a woman can make you crawl
               out from under yourself, or forget
the kingdom that is your body

& what would you say, octopus?
               that you live knowing nobody
                              can touch you more
                                             than you do already

                                             that you can’t punch anything underwater
                              so you might as well drape yourself
                                             around it, bring it right up to your mouth
                              let each suction cup kiss what it finds

                                             that having this many hands
                              means to hold everything
               at once & nothing
to hold you back

that when you split
               you turn your blood
                              blue & pour
                                             out more ocean

                                             that you know heartbreak so well
                              you remove all your bones
so nothing can kill you.