Fledgling
Copyright © 2017 by Traci Brimhall. Originally published in Poem-a-Day on September 26, 2017, by the Academy of American Poets.
Copyright © 2017 by Traci Brimhall. Originally published in Poem-a-Day on September 26, 2017, by the Academy of American Poets.
First of all, I was born dead, a crown of snakes sleeping
in my fever. Dreams threatened terrible resurrections
like a seaside cemetery. Some days I’m glad
my diagnosis means seven fewer years. Other days,
I bury all the shovels. Miracles bloom out of my mistakes.
Always, always, the urgent indigo bruising the morning.
What else can I say? The book opened
like a future or a grave. I chose a wilder way
through the woods, stalked by a mosquito
whining for my heat. I chose a stranger’s mouth
because it rhymed with love, because it
finished me off like a sentence. My throat
like a hummingbird’s, mistaken for a jewel.
I like being a mammal, the only animal who
weeps, sadness a foreplay between sodium
and water. I admire my drooping belly for
waxing and waning like a moon, stretching
over my growing son and then gathering
back together like theater curtains. My ring
finger is happy to wear a different weight