OBIT [The Priest]
The Priest—died on August 3, 2015. As
he died, he cursed. When the priest
first started coming, he left a
watermark on the door. As time
passed, my mother’s door was riddled
with bullets from his fist. He started
sending me prayers with his eyes. I
didn’t want his prayers. I had too many
selves for God to save. None of my
selves knew how to say sorry. None of
my selves knew each other. I wonder if
my mother took God in towards the
end? The way she had once cared for
her fifty bonsai plants each morning,
snipping gently, adjusting tiny
sprinklers, beckoning them with her
breath. The bonsai barely responded,
had never asked to be limited. She said
the priest was weird, would look at her
in a creepy way. As if he knew she was
not a believer, but a refugee. When
she arrived in this country, they
painted over her skin. Her fungal
toes only looked like roots.
Copyright © 2018 by Victoria Chang. Originally published in Georgia Review. Used with the permission of the poet.