No One’s Looking
Lately waking at an indeterminate hour,
I know no one’s looking for me.
I could walk across a bridge & back
or burrow in, king of my oscillating
fan. Minutes sag like low branches
in snow. I’m taking my adulthood slow,
like medicine. Arranging flowers in a vase
is something nice to do for yourself,
that color rush, serotonin spike, even if
they won’t survive the week. The cut stems
stripped of function, the smaller griefs
in that. Like how my niece at night stands
in her crib refusing sleep, eyelids fluttering
open, closed. Soon, all the world’s
nieces will be old enough to want another
earth, a second chance, as we warm
by degrees. We’re at a boil now, over-
flowing with want. These are trying times.
But time’s trying, asking us to stay awhile
longer inside the length of this moment.
From So Long (Four Way Books, 2023) by Jen Levitt. Copyright © 2023 by Jen Levitt. Used with the permission of the publisher.