Though I didn’t know how to begin or believe, I held in
myself expectation. Awareness. A palpable fit. Every garden
a window through which I petalled off hopes. There was nothing
so alarming as a sky. Who knew if an elegance walked invisible
beside me or on stolen feet. Or if all elegance is the act of being
invisible after all. If after all the spirit is indivisible from the body.
Or a glamor slit from this spilt sack of skin. I have never had
nor been enough. Every sundress is an ache. What a pink
unpleasantness, the idea of touch. An earth let loose and loss
the only record of its revolutions, its unguarded roots. A sky
rinsing from itself the pointless trash of spring.
Copyright © 2017 by Emma Bolden. “Hysterectomy/Recovery” originally appeared in TriQuarterly. Used with permission of the author.