I live in Texas now. & in the next lane over on I-10
BIG JEFF is soaring at twin-speed toward the dusk-pending horizon
& something base & graceful has taken us over
like, if I took my hands off the wheel, we could lift into the air & become
part of the indistinguishable wave of laughing gulls above.
BIG JEFF says his license plate, which I first checked when I let him pass
10 miles back because his lights behind me
were the Second Coming (or the First Coming, in his case, if we’re making
the usual jokes about men with big trucks).
But I don’t want to make unbecoming jokes about BIG JEFF, who is
right now, accompanying me down this interstate
of solitude, not leaving me behind or riding my bumper, just gliding
beside me as if he needs someone too, as if he trusts me
& said to himself in his blue-lit interior, Hey, I’m gonna hang on her wing.
She seems to know how to get where we’re going.
She’s probably a hellcat. No balls hanging from his tow bar, just BIG JEFF
on his pearlescent Ford Super Duty, which has a row of three
headlights on each side & which, I admit, I was more than annoyed by
when he came up behind me like an astrodome
on wheels. But Texas is home now & this is the way of things—BIG JEFF
& NASA, tacos & trucks. The only state with more guns
than Kentucky, the expert at the range told me before I left. I am an expert
at beginnings, a Lone Star once again, as I have been
in every state I’ve lived—the Bluegrass, the Garden, the Palmetto, the Bay—
each time hoping I’m closer to the beautiful things.