We were never ones to avoid pain
even if we found him in another person.
And when we do (find him again)—
let him have not been born in the rain
and grown up to become a storm.
His kisses lightning that scorches the earth.
As young girls, our grandmothers warned us
When there is lightning, cover all the mirrors.
But, one night thunder snapped;
its rumble shattering the vanity.
We’ve chased cloudbursts ever since.
Committed ourselves to flood and flight.
For girls like us who pray to the Sky Beings—
Protect us whenever we go
where we were never meant to be.
Put tobacco down
for the ones
with Creator-shaped holes in our hearts.
We spend lifetimes trying to fill,
to feel. What is the medicine for this?
Our mothers tell us (as they taught)
Send them love. Send them love. Send [say it] love—
So, praise our fathers who left in the night,
mapping us into unlovable.
They made us tough as nails. Now we know
how to hold ourselves together.
Praise the ones who listened
when girls like us asked them to leave.
Praise the lovers who never returned.
You helped us no longer be afraid of ghosts.
For girls like us,
the wound never fully heals.
The gentle rhythm of its pulse, a reminder to
praise our mothers for teaching us words are seeds.
We plant, bloom ourselves anew.
Praise the lightning. Praise the storms
we run through
because girls like us know—
this is where
our medicine comes from.
Copyright © 2024 by Tanaya Winder. Originally published in Poem-a-Day on November 4, 2024, by the Academy of American Poets.