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Copyright © 2018 Susan Rich. Used with permission of the author. This poem originally appeared in The Southern Review, Summer 2018.
Copyright © 2018 Susan Rich. Used with permission of the author. This poem originally appeared in The Southern Review, Summer 2018.
Past Storrow Drive, over the Mystic
River Bridge, my father lived in Chelsea—
home to Katz’s two-step bagel, to perpetually
broken sidewalks. A minor chord
in an immigrant tale—feral curls,
thirdhand coat—my dad looks
into the me he cannot imagine.
His eyes and hips glitter as he stands
against the glass of the family’s corner shop.
After school, working wordlessly beside his father—
leased, not owned—he would repeat—
a livelihood soon-to-fail from unpaid credit
Today, the sky saved my life
caught between smoked rum and cornflower.
Today, there is a color I can’t name cruising past
the backdoor – it is the idea of color.
Cloudscapes evaporate like love songs
across lost islands, each a small bit coin of thought.
Today, I am alive and this is a good thing—
clams in the half shell, a lemon rosemary tart.
I live in the day and the day lives past me.
If I could draw a map of the hours, a long
horizon would travel on indefinitely ~ a green, backlit thread.
That night the air stank, the stars obscured behind wild horses of clouds. I walked on cobblestones on the edge of something I could not name: new land of unalterable decisions like a retinue of assassins coming right for me, who kept coming in a bad dream that dissolved like a black-and-white movie, the dark mouth enveloping the entire screen. The End. Then the aftermath like a heroin addict waking up in the overgrowth of a river path, no longer young.