Truth

I’m allergic to hair dye and silver. Of the natives,

I love the Aztecs most of all, the way they lit fires

in the gouged chests of men to keep the world spinning.

I’ve seen women eat cotton balls so they wouldn’t eat bread

I will never be as beautiful as the night I danced in a garage,

anorexic, decked in black boots, black sweater, black jeans,

hip-hop music and a girl I didn’t know pulling my hips

to hers. Hunger is hunger. I got drunk one night

and argued with the Pacific. I was twenty. I broke

into the bodies of men like a cartoon burglar. I wasn’t twenty.

In the winter of those years I kept Christmas lights

strung around my bed and argued with the Italian landlady

who lived downstairs about turning the heat off,

and every night I wanted to drink but didn’t.