We make dogma out of letter writing: the apocryphal story of Lincoln who wrote angry letters he never sent. We wait for letters for days and days. Someone tells me I'll write you a letter and I feel he's saying you're different than anyone else. Distance's buzz gets louder and louder. It gets to be a blackest hole. I want the letter about the time we cross the avenue, and you reach for my hand without looking—I am afraid I'm not what you want. We float down the street as if in the curve of a pod and the starry black is like the inside of a secret. We're drunk. The streetlight exposes us which becomes the deepest horror. Yes. End the letter like that, so it becomes authorless. Then the letter might give off secrets: acid imbalances that detonate.
Copyright © 2010 by Carmen Jiménez Smith. Used by permission of the author.