Custody
Chopping cilantro and flat leaf parsley
on a bamboo board at the sink, mincing
garlic and onions. Late mellowing light,
the air bordering on cool but tinged
bitter-green with the smell of growing
amargoso in the yard. I can keep
the kitchen door open because the side gate
is locked, and the week-long siege at the street
corner is over. We did not know the man
they say trespassed, early Monday morning,
into someone's yard with a firearm;
did not know what altercation if any
led to someone calling the police. So he ran
and barricaded himself in his own house.
They came in force, then; rifles drawn,
sealed off one end of the block. Those of us
who could still come and go out the other end
brought back reports every day, over four
days: how many squad cars, where the waiting
ambulance was parked, the bomb unit; who saw
the robot deployed with a phone, the negotiators,
the TV crew. We did not witness how, before dawn
on the fourth day, finally they took him into custody—
from the Latin custodia meaning guardianship,
keeping, care. Now this man who neighbors say
used to pelt their doors with donuts, or attach
stuffed animals on leashes for walks,
is in a hospital or facility. Is it wrong
to wonder if it lasted as long as it did
instead of arriving at swifter resolution—
doors broken in; tasers, clubs; bullets sprayed
into his body—because of the color of his skin?
Or is it possible to believe that finally
something of change might be moving slowly
through the dismal atmosphere, tempering
and holding in check, allowing the thought
to stay the trigger, the heart to register
its trembling before letting the weapon fly?
In summer, because dark descends more slowly,
it's hard to scan the sky for the hunter
and his belt studded with the three telltale
bright stars; harder to remember how
once, he boasted he would hunt down and kill
all of earth's wild animals, to make it safe.
But there he is, adrift in the inky darkness,
club and shield eternally raised, his own K-9 units
at his heels; and here we are, still trying to sort
villain from victim, wound from welcome opening.