A Massive Aquarium Holding 1,500 Tropical Fish Bursts
& each fish feels solid land before its gills 
cease moving. I miss sex but can’t imagine  
dating. Glass shatters in patterns designed  
for a specific aftermath. What confession   
offers isn’t relief. From my bed, coverlet tucked  
under chin, I heard my father’s hand connect  
with my mother’s cheek. A fish slap requires  
actual fish-to-face contact. Windowpanes  
bust in shards. Car windshields spider & smash 
into square chunks or mini blocks, so on impact  
they won’t decapitate or slash the face. A tank’s 
ideal temperature for tropical fish is 75 to 80 degrees.  
I tried to learn how to stab the worm on the hook  
to bait the prey, but in the end I was only called  
a pussy. Tackle box tipped over, the red & white 
striped sleek lure. Don’t they think of everything:  
claims to cover any minor loss, inspections to avert  
damage. Even so, at the health center, the multiple-choice 
form omits the oval to fill in adopted so I leave  
the question blank. We’re here to consider my choices 
in contraception, how to prevent an itchy rash down there  
& to discuss the definitions of sex & life. What’s hereditary  
gets lost to wonderland, elsewhere a consultant advises  
curators on predation, tells the team which fish to import  
for show-stopping colors & compatibility. But we know  
the inspector misses the crack, walks by the leak, & finally  
without pause someone sweeps & stuffs dozens of trash bags  
with glass & dead fish parts. We want what we want. 
Copyright © 2023 by Sarah Audsley. Originally published in Poem-a-Day on November 14, 2023, by the Academy of American Poets.
