I Say the Thing for the First Time

& there’s no taking it back now.

What comes next? Charcoal underbone, 

darkroom for soliloquy & irises wide

at home. Some underside party popping

off & ending with me counting resignations

on a couch made from my last pennies—

copper profiles cushion deep, dull 

with emancipation & worth almost me.

Button nicks instead of eyes. Green

patina instead of skin over presidential 

profiles. How to separate these awkward

exhales from the marinating revivals?

The song in the park across the street

dials up something endless about love

& big sunflowers, but I can’t split

this primal reflection from its primary 

leather. Sneakers & skeletons arrhythmic

in their leaving & squeaking: twisting

in somebody else’s garden in the middle

of a cracked city near a river so thick

with its own beat-up history, it’s already

eye level to the flocking blackbirds.