How To Forget

I am lining my memories up against the wall. 
They are begging me for reprieve. Here is the night 
I found you on the floor, folded 

like laundry. Here are the bloody towels, 
the smell of ammonia and rotting fruit. 
Once I was a wife. Now 

I am a wilderness. I am the grove 
of aspens. All that’s left of you 
are candle stubs and carpet stains. 

All your goodbyes have turned into horses. 
They are grazing peacefully. Your words 
are blades of grass, our last argument 

a pasture dotted with poppies. 
That night I watched you wash 
your bruised hands in the sink. Now, 

I see two fish diving into a stream. 
I am re-remembering the last time 
we spoke. I have turned it into a holiday, 

marked it on the calendar 
with an asterisk. A day to eat cake. 
A day to enter the cellar 

and retrieve the special vintage 
with its sweet notes of smoke and honey. 
Lush on the tongue. Easy to swallow. 

The song sparrows 
have returned from their long summer 
singing of loss. Three notes. 

One for the knife, one for the cut, 
one for all I have 
forgotten.