First Warm Day in a College Town
Today is the day the first bare-chested
runners appear, coursing down College Hill
as I drive to campus to teach, hard
not to stare because it’s only February 15,
and though I now live in the South, I spent
my girlhood in frigid Illinois hunting Easter eggs
in snow, or trick-or-treating in the snow, an umbrella
protecting my cardboard wings, so now it’s hard
not to see these taut colts as my reward, these yearlings
testing the pasture, hard as they come toward my Nissan
not to turn my head as they pound past, hard
not to angle the mirror to watch them cruise
down my shoulder, too hard, really, when I await them
like crocuses, search for their shadows as others do
the groundhog’s, and suddenly here they are, the boys
without shirts, how fleet of foot, how cute their buns,
I have made it again, it is spring.
Hard to recall just now that these are the torsos
of my students, or my past or future students, who every year
grow one year younger, get one year fewer
of my funny jokes and hip references
to Fletch and Nirvana, which means some year if they catch me
admiring, they won’t grin grins that make me, busted,
grin back--hard to know a spring will come
when I’ll have to train my eyes
on the dash, the fuel gauge nearing empty,
hard to think of that spring, that
distant spring, that very very very
(please God) distant
spring.
Published in Unmentionables (W. W. Norton, New York, 2008) Copyright © 2008 by Beth Ann Fennelly. Used with the permission of the author.