Fledgling
Copyright © 2017 by Traci Brimhall. Originally published in Poem-a-Day on September 26, 2017, by the Academy of American Poets.
Copyright © 2017 by Traci Brimhall. Originally published in Poem-a-Day on September 26, 2017, by the Academy of American Poets.
What else can I say? The book opened
like a future or a grave. I chose a wilder way
through the woods, stalked by a mosquito
whining for my heat. I chose a stranger’s mouth
because it rhymed with love, because it
finished me off like a sentence. My throat
like a hummingbird’s, mistaken for a jewel.
We prefer to do it with the lights on,
the Victrola scratching How long can it last?
against the tremble of curtains. Patient,
we learn the walls, their glossary of knocks,
translating harlequin and dust. What we
know lives here—lonely bone star blossom
of the spider plant, lost bee on the sill,
First of all, I was born dead, a crown of snakes sleeping
in my fever. Dreams threatened terrible resurrections
like a seaside cemetery. Some days I’m glad
my diagnosis means seven fewer years. Other days,
I bury all the shovels. Miracles bloom out of my mistakes.
Always, always, the urgent indigo bruising the morning.