Remember the sky that you were born under,
know each of the star’s stories.
Remember the moon, know who she is.
Remember the sun’s birth at dawn, that is the
strongest point of time. Remember sundown
and the giving away to night.
Remember your birth, how your mother struggled
to give you form and breath. You are evidence of
her life, and her mother’s, and hers.
Remember your father. He is your life, also.
Remember the earth whose skin you are:
red earth, black earth, yellow earth, white earth
brown earth, we are earth.
Remember the plants, trees, animal life who all have their
tribes, their families, their histories, too. Talk to them,
listen to them. They are alive poems.
Remember the wind. Remember her voice. She knows the
origin of this universe.
Remember you are all people and all people
are you.
Remember you are this universe and this
universe is you.
Remember all is in motion, is growing, is you.
Remember language comes from this.
Remember the dance language is, that life is.
Remember.

Being the Oldest Daughter


My mother’s death is another body: she flaunts herself, takes up too much

space in the marriage bed, ruins my closet, wears my best black skirt,

side-zipped up her thigh. Spins and twirls in my slip,

color of a baby aspirin, color of a dulled sun. As if now my mother refuses

to be a mother, has no interest in the children

who cry for her, demand Sippy cups of milk, want

to settle in her arms in my favorite green chair.

She won’t touch them, refuses every embrace.

But don’t worry: soon her death will undress herself, she’ll unveil, but never

in the dark, she wants all the lights on, she loves cheap

fluorescence.


Silence


Don’t talk to me about the throat, the lungs, any red road to the body’s interior.

Don’t talk to me about how, for so long, it was my favorite metaphor.

Now I picture my mother’s lungs.

Being the Oldest Daughter 

who gets the texts on her phone: peace, love and strength to you!
Thinking of you! Stay strong!
Who is offered gifts of scented bath crystals, body wash?
Important to stay clean and lovely.

Let me know what you need, people say.
Maybe I need nothing.

Alone I roll away curled in a blue cotton blanket bundled like a child.


Metaphors for a Different Ending


An endoscope’s black and silver fish tail.
PET Scan machine a big plastic donut, un-sugared.
MRI, loud as a car crash.
IV drip a watery popsicle.

But she refused all treatment. And so the tenor and the vehicle split apart.

Being the Oldest Daughter

Walking out of the hospital into late morning brightness in New Orleans with my sister,
after giving away our mother's glasses,
on Jefferson Highway, watching the people our age, perfectly healthy and well,
people who still have mothers,

I’m filled with fury at everyone’s good health—


The Tenor and the Vehicle


Grief is a plate scraped clean.

Grief is a sun-bleached sheet.

Or none. Or neither. It’s a dish rag she used in the kitchen, stuffed at the back of a drawer, torn,
mildew dark—