Elegy
by Xavier Searle
They have only dead heroes. —Larry MitchellThere is a barrenness to the end of all loves.
If I must be honest, I don’t think we’ll ever recover.
If I must be, I’m still procrastinating
the letter; afraid of what I’ll learn.
& what, then? He is a dead saint
whose censors swing with my every step,
whose myth is a pantheon without a name.
Dear, departed, beloved:
I like to think I would have been your favorite,
chasing uninked obituaries—both of us
still alive to love.