Sweetheart

when you break thru

you’ll find

a poet here

not quite what one would choose.

I won’t promise

you’ll never go hungry

or that you won’t be sad

on this gutted

breaking

globe

but I can show you

baby

enough to love

to break your heart

forever

Well, son, I’ll tell you: 
Life for me ain’t been no crystal stair.
It’s had tacks in it,
And splinters,
And boards torn up,
And places with no carpet on the floor—
Bare;
But all the time
I’se been a’climbin’ on,
And reachin’ landin’s,
And turnin’ corners, 
And sometimes goin’ in the dark, 
Where there ain’t been no light.
So boy, don’t you turn back;
Don’t you sit down on the steps, 
’Cause you finds it’s kinder hard;
Don’t you fall now—
For I’se still goin’, honey,
I’se still climbin’,
And life for me ain’t been no crystal stair.

Bird dogs, they say—

the kind that chase something in flight.

try to capture with its teeth

a winged ceremony,

feathers dripping from each of their mouths.

The first dog was just plain old.

The second died of a heart worm pill —my father neglected to purchase.

What else has he let die?

My mother fixed his plate every night,

never bought a car, or shoes, or skirt

without his permission.

She birthed children and raised them.

She, my sister, and I—

winged things in the air.

I knew there was blood under the ground.

No surprise when I found the house was sinking.

Our dogs always stayed outside, not allowed

in the living room.

Only the basement,

where my father stayed, slept, fixed things.

My mother, a silent companion.

The dog barks and my father goes running.

The dog dies

and we bury my mother.

Graves for everyone

We bark

and feathers fall from my father’s teeth.

He barks and becomes the tree.

The bark remembers phantom noose

and screams.

The screech becomes a bullet

without a window to land through,

just a body,

a backyard,

a shovel.

His drinking was different in sunshine,

as if it couldn’t be bad. Sudden, manic,

he swung into a laugh, bought me

two ice creams, said One for each hand.

Half the hot inning I licked Good Humor

running down wrists. My bird-mother

earlier, packing my pockets with sun block,

had hopped her warning: Be careful.



So, pinned between his knees, I held

his Old Style in both hands

while he streaked the sun block on my cheeks

and slurred My little Indian princess.

Home run: the hairy necks of the men in front

jumped up, thighs torn from gummy green bleachers

to join the violent scramble. Father

held me close and said Be careful,

be careful. But why should I be full of care

with his thick arm circling my shoulders,

with a high smiling sun, like a home run,

in the upper right-hand corner of the sky?