I am better when I am dead
or when I am
dreaming.
Having finally entered
the carboned pistons
of your machinery.
You, as a boy,
racing through
the warm excess
of night’s soft decline.
When I rise
I kerosene
my fingers
place my hands flat
on its weeping
branches.
The music is smashed
Wurlitzer, trashed and drug
up from a landfill
in Tazewell.
Earth mixed with quell
and the bright peal
of a mangled glockenspiel.
In the winter hills
of summer, a sick
foal in the barn,
and an old farmhouse
with all its clocks
pulled out.
Its cold room
filling miraculously
with the slow sediment
of forget.
Copyright © 2019 by Cynthia Cruz. Originally published in Poem-a-Day on July 29, 2019, by the Academy of American Poets.