please advise stop [I was dragging a ladder slowly over stones stop]

I was dragging a ladder slowly over stones stop
it was only from out of my thoughts that I could climb stop
not from the room please

my father's dying offered an indelicate washing of my
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the way the centers of some syllables scrub away all other
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his corpse merely preparing to speak its new name at the
speed of nightfalling please   

each loss grows from a previously unremarkable vestigial organ
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will I act now as if with a new limb stop
a phantom limb of the familial please advise