the train never comes.
You smell it anyway, its blue-coal
body. In August, the fringe sticky
with Queen Anne’s lace, you might
walk these tracks inside
gigantic noons. I walked them.
You might smash bottles,
start fires, watch clouds from
your back, breathe clouds through
the red sparks of cigarettes.
Take your first sips of bad
sweet wine, cry in a graveyard at night
with your best friend, a half moon
and grave dirt in your hair.
Have your first bad kiss here, like
swallowing a living fish. If you see
the older kids, run, god
knows why. They will chase you
into the waxy halls
of high school. Unlike me,
you will have all your music
in your hand, the best
movies, a phone that calls
everyone at once. Look up.
The big fires of June stars
are so slow and boring they will
keep you awake for good.
Swim the mucky river.
Wash your hair in clover-smell,
the swish of trees. The crows—
you can’t not love it
when they chatter the sun down.
Follow gravel roads
to screaming crickets
and beer, sleep out
on the hood of your
hand-me-down Honda,
wake up with yellow flowers
in your mouth. Walk the streets
on the first night
of fall, every tree swelling
with what I can’t say
and see in the lit-up houses
beautiful pictures
of strangers.
Copyright © 2016 Jeffrey Bean. This poem originally appeared in The Missouri Review. Used with permission of the author.