That bastard sun rises again, dissolving
the only good dream I’ve had all year.
My waking mind feels for hope, blind
reach for eyeglasses on the nightstand
or an oxygen regulator fallen
from my mouth to the ocean floor.
Across town, my friend can’t lift her head
off her pillow, the chemo eating her
platelets and maybe the tumor, while
in my kitchen, the coffee timer clicks on,
French Roast draining into the carafe.
On the news, a Somali mother searches
tree bark for emaciated insects: You see,
even the bugs are starving. Dear world,
what good can you offer? The finches’
red-breasted tune, these strawberries
grown fat around dimpled gold seeds?
My son, she brushes dust from his lips,
he keeps asking for a donut. Just a nibble
of a donut. I don’t know what to say.
“Good Morning Heartache” from Showtime at the Ministry of Lost Causes by Cheryl Dumesnil, © 2016. Reprinted by permission of the University of Pittsburgh Press.