What’s Left Behind After a Hawk Has Seized a Smaller Bird Midair

        for Jericho, with thanks to Carl Phillips

I like men who are cruel to me;

men who know how I will end;

men who, when they touch me,

fasten their shadows to my neck

then get out my face when certain

they haven’t much use for being seen.

I like men to be cruel to me.

Any men who build their bodies into

widths of doors I only walk through

once will do. There’s a difference

between entrances and exits I don’t

have much use for now. I’ve seen

what’s left behind after a hawk

has seized a smaller bird midair.

The feathers lay circled in prattle

with rotting crab apples, grasses passing

between the entrances and exits

of clover. The raptor, somewhere

over it, over it. Cruelty where?

The hell would grief go in a goshawk?

It’s enough to risk the open field,

its rotten crab apples, grasses passing

out like lock-kneed mourners in sun.

There I was, scoping, scavenging

the damage to drag mystery out of

a simple read: two animals wanted

life enough to risk the open field

and one of them took what it hunted.

Each one tells me he wants me

vulnerable. I already wrote that book.

The body text cleaved to the spine,

simple to read as two animals wanting

to see inside each other and one

pulling back a wing to offer—See?

Here—the fastest way in or out

and you knew how it would end.

You cleaved the body text to the spine

cause you read closely. You clock damage.

It was a door you walked through once

before pivoting toward a newer image of risk.

Credit

Copyright © 2020 by Justin Phillip Reed. Originally published in Poem-a-Day on March 10, 2020, by the Academy of American Poets.

About this Poem

“This poem emerged by treating as true an assessment of me that was declared to me: You like men who are cruel to you. Fine. Meanwhile, I had written several drafts and fragments of poems that obsessed over the single image of a circle of feathers strewn atop the grass of a backyard I used to have, which bothered me for at least two years, and which Carl Phillips elucidated for me as ‘what's left behind after a hawk has seized a smaller bird in midair.’ The assessment and the image shuffled forms of my usual questions: what is natural (about) violence/ dominance/ power/ resistance among animals, including people? and what, if anything, does it have to do with my speciesistic tendency to rationalize, or my poetical desire to magnify? In addition to maintaining a three- and four-beat line for its occasion, the poem uses a villanelle-y formal device that I cooked up in the margin of my notebook while bored at a poetry reading, and which arranges repetitions as links of chain—forcing a lull of time and distance (in which change could happen) against saying a thing I've said before, as happens in relationships, politics, poetry, blues, etc.”

Justin Phillip Reed