What We Wanted
for Frances Diemoz
was a trail that would lead sufficiently far away
to make it a good walk by the time we got back.
We wanted its footprint to be light enough
to escape notice but deep enough to follow.
Its route not known, its end site
and turning-back point not yet glimpsed,
but its mouth had to be where the easement
on the property above met undeveloped city land.
To scurry straight up the piñon-studded shale
was to slide scrambling backwards in one long gasp,
arms needle-scratched and palms shale-scraped.
It took most of summer’s Sunday morning dog walks
to construct a less direct and better course,
tracking the barbed wire fence line both north (left)
and right (south), seeking openings
in the ponderosa pines to climb up at a slight incline.
It took much re-traipsing of the same ground
to suss it out, snipping strips of neon orange or pink
from the reels at our waists, tying, untying, retying
(at first I typed “retyping”) ribbons every few trees.
When we reached the gulch that further on
crosses under our shared road, we veered back from it
and up, inadvertently creating our first switchback.
Later, we came to tack away well before the drop-off.
By that time, we knew where we were headed:
a vista point we’d stumbled upon coming up a saddle
from the north. It was already marked by cairns.
In the sun, the city below was a blur, while the mountain
peaks across the valley glinted like arrowheads.
Blazing our trail back up, we often found ourselves guided
by the hoofprints of crisscrossing deer paths,
each delicate stamp on the dirt a seal, a heraldic fleur-de-lis.
Copyright © 2025 by Carol Moldaw. Originally published in Poem-a-Day on November 13, 2025, by the Academy of American Poets.
“During the pandemic, a friend and I forged a trail on city land behind my house. We wanted to walk our dogs without running into Santa Fe’s many hikers. Exploring the terrain and picking a route among the trees and scrabble, we took many wrong turns but eventually made our way up the mountainside and were able to find another way down, creating a loop. The poem can be read both literally and metaphorically—the experience of creating a trail, with its false starts, twists and turns, and unexpected vistas, being not unlike the experience of writing a poem.”
—Carol Moldaw