Still Life of Cárdenas Hacienda with Cats
there was a house at the bottom of a mountain 
                        sunbaked mud and straw and as tiny as a heart 
with ¼ the rooms and in that cavity a woman gave birth 
                        to blood and vomit every year 
for thirteen years and sometimes her husband came home at night 
                        but mostly he hunted gold buried along the road to Santa Fe 
if he ever found it she would never know 
                        he guzzled all gold and Taos Lightning 
as the children went without some survived some didn’t 
                        one boy drowned in the washtub and one twin died at birth 
one son clutched a yowling cat to his chest 
                        in a hammock on the ocean floor while torpedoes 
pounded the sub like shots of mezcal on the guard rails in the canyon 
                        where the world split open again at the hip 
and another son drove her home and another turned her 
                        on her side so she could breathe easier 
the living twin closed her eyes and somewhere in Arizona, 
                        another daughter fell to her knees and cried at the kitchen stove 
a week later, another son bailed him out of jail 
                        and thirty years later, a niece and a nephew visited him 
at the house made of earth and his mother’s blood, 
                        and stray cats played in the orchard. 
Copyright © 2022 by Victoriano Cárdenas. Originally published in Poem-a-Day on November 30, 2022, by the Academy of American Poets.
“While Taos gets a lot of attention for being an ‘art Mecca’ or a ski-town, the bloody history of colonization and forced assimilation, and even our tradition of rebellion, tends to go unnoticed, forgotten, or ignored beneath the town’s tourist-y veneer. So, too, the children born of and into these traumas, and generation after generation are trapped in cycles of abuse and addiction while the rich come to paint and play on the land. This poem is my attempt to document only what remains in my family’s living memory of our home, the Cardenas Hacienda, including the shadows and some of the light.”
—Victoriano Cárdenas
 
      