Personal Poem
When I walk around downtown Durango
I sometimes find myself searching for the location
Of shops and restaurants no longer there
With quiet intention, I will walk past familiar places:
Carver’s, Brown’s Shoe, Maria’s Bookshop
When in deep thought, I walk into the Animas
Chocolate Company – and like the numerous times
Before, the rows of truffles within the case
Deeply absorb me – the chocolatier’s artistry of
Small batch truffles, neatly arranged
Multi-colored, diversely shaped, shiny speckled &
smooth surfaced, gold dusted, nut-layered
globes rotate into my thoughts, a lasso spiraling
my focus like a funnel, like a warm caress leading me
by the hand, a lover’s scent lingering in the air
I do not buy a tray of truffles, nor an Americano coffee,
or any discounted chocolate tucked in the bin
by the east wall – rather I deeply absorb into
The something missing from this morning – the lingered
Yearning, the inability to coax last night’s thoughts:
Come forth & sing! Strands of hair beneath my pillow
Lost (or loose among) – inventoried in last month’s
Balance sheet – Did I?
O Asphyxiation – how You applaud My lapses
The lapping of consummating downtown walks
This evening there is a ruckus on Main St.
I lift my head, and see Nancy who just came from
The Pride event at the 11th St. Station
She’s covered with rainbow hearts &
We split one down the middle and pose
Click
Click
Click again
The goofiness, the anointing of laughter, the
Hug in broad daylight on Main St. in this
Mountain desert, tourist-tangled, tousled about
Like miners searching for a Mother-lode-of-
Gold town, the place I call home
Copyright © 2024 by Esther Belin. Originally published in Poem-a-Day on November 19, 2024, by the Academy of American Poets.
“This poem is about the Four Corners region region of the United States, a place I call home. The poem makes reference to many connections I have to the land and the people in the small mountain town where I live.”
—Esther Belin