How Alone Barbie Chang’s Mother
How alone Barbie Chang’s mother
must have felt doing
nothing but dying her mother actually
stopped dying her hair
in January stopped being an actuary
for her money she
must have known her time was limited
did the diseased birch
tree know they were going to cut it down
how quickly the air
around it filled in the space it does no
good to know a mother’s
face who would have known that a
mother’s face could
be erased too at some point we are all
eliminated from this
earth at some point most of us give birth
at some point we lose
a mother at some point we are all
disappointments who
can’t possibly care for others when
our mothers die we
are all lost and there are no words for
it some want to
name us as grieving others wrongly
name us heroes
From Barbie Chang (Copper Canyon Press, 2017). Copyright © 2017 by Victoria Chang. Used by permission of The Permissions Company, Inc., on behalf of Copper Canyon Press, www.coppercanyonpress.org.