Homage to Sharon Stone
It's early morning. This is the "before," the world hanging around in its wrapper, blowzy, frumpy, doing nothing: my neighbors, hitching themselves to the roles of the unhappily married, trundle their three mastiffs down the street. I am writing this book of poems. My name is Lynn Emanuel. I am wearing a bathrobe and curlers; from my lips, a Marlboro drips ash on the text. It is the third of September nineteen**. And as I am writing this in my trifocals and slippers, across the street, Sharon Stone, her head swollen with curlers, her mouth red and narrow as a dancing slipper, is rushed into a black limo. And because these limos snake up and down my street, this book will be full of sleek cars nosing through the shadowy ocean of these words. Every morning, Sharon Stone, her head in a helmet of hairdo, wearing a visor of sunglasses, is engulfed by a limo the size of a Pullman, and whole fleets of these wind their way up and down the street, day after day, giving to the street (Liberty Avenue in Pittsburgh, PA) and the book I am writing, an aspect that is both glamorous and funereal. My name is Lynn Emanuel, and in this book I play the part of someone writing a book, and I take the role seriously, just as Sharon Stone takes seriously the role of the diva. I watch the dark cars disappear her and in my poem another Pontiac erupts like a big animal at the cool trough of a shady curb. So, when you see this black car, do not think it is a Symbol For Something. It is just Sharon Stone driving past the house of Lynn Emanuel who is, at the time, trying to write a book of poems. Or you could think of the black car as Lynn Emanuel, because, really, as an author, I have always wanted to be a car, even though most of the time I have to be the "I," or the woman hanging wash; I am a woman, one minute, then I am a man, I am a carnival of Lynn Emanuels: Lynn in the red dress; Lynn sulking behind the big nose of my erection; then I am the train pulling into the station when what I would really love to be is Gertrude Stein spying on Sharon Stone at six in the morning. But enough about that, back to the interior decorating: On the page, the town looks bald and dim so I turn up the amps on the radioactive glances of bad boys. In a kitchen, I stack pans sleek with grease, and on a counter there is a roast beef red as a face in a tantrum. Amid all this bland strangeness is Sharon Stone, who, like an engraved invitation, is asking me, Won't you, too, play a role? I do not choose the black limo rolling down the street with the golden stare of my limo headlights bringing with me the sun, the moon, and Sharon Stone. It is nearly dawn; the sun is a fox chewing her foot from the trap; every bite is a wound and every wound is a red window, a red door, a red road. My name is Lynn Emanuel. I am the writer trying to unwrite the world that is all around her.
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From Then, Suddenly--, by Lynn Emanuel. Copyright © 1999. All rights reserved. Reproduced by permission of the University of Pittsburgh Press. Available at local bookstores or directly from the University of Pittsburgh Press:
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Date Published
01/01/1999