Gender Euphoria and the Superbloom

That winter was long and full of records: 
         snow up to our chests and the chill deep in our cells, 
                  the forever rain and with it, the mud that dripped 
                           like sap and became a part of us.

         Then came days of 
                  grass as soft as fleece 
                           bees flying like comets and goats 
                                     rotating around the creekbend we followed up until

                                              water water water was all we could hear, 
                                      until wild wild wildflowers were all we could see— 
                    a galaxy of them twinkling 
                            their bright violets and yellows and oranges,

a reminder of what has endured 
        what has always been 
                   what is now ready to be seen.

Like a lizard, I bathe           naked on a rock  

          and let the south wind and let the waterfall

and let the buckeye            lead me.  

The horizon is a line I cannot yet  say.

       The screen shows me what I haven’t seen in months,  

what others see: curves and a blur.

       Not a thing, but any thing. 

Finally, I am the animal that I am.

Credit

Copyright © 2025 by Jennifer Huang. Originally published in Poem-a-Day on December 8, 2025, by the Academy of American Poets. 

About this Poem

“I toggle between seeing my body as I actually feel inside and seeing it through the lens of how others may perceive me. I wrote ‘Gender Euphoria and the Superbloom’ while staying and working on a farm in the Sierra Mountains in California. No one there knew I was nonbinary and yet I experienced so many moments of gender euphoria while working with my body and being close to so much natural beauty.” 
—Jennifer Huang