from “Autobiography of My Alter Ego”
Black Virgin Mountain.
Yeah, gore, & all
the damn vagaries
of war locked inside a song.
Yeah, sometimes one thing
leads to another
rainbow, a choker of hippie beads,
& I can’t
stop hearing Dad’s voice
almost going there
on “Nature Boy,” no struggle
trying to hide
behind his eyes. He almost made it,
but didn’t
know how to leave dirt on the roots.
Maybe this
is why I must keep hurt alive,
limping inside
some bamboo cage.
*
Lately, I feel how worlds shift.
I don’t know
how they slip the yoke,
but three nights ago
these sappers broke through
concertina wire,
their naked bodies greased,
as they ran & slung
wild satchel charges.
I was tied up in a hut
of clay & thatch, & a nameless
army nurse
sat in a corner, sizing me up,
camouflaged
in blackface, & she wore
next to nothing.
I heard a tap on the other side
of the wall,
sounding a message in code,
& the nurse Lt.
stood up, & said, that’s John.
*
What’s going on here,
huh? I mean, look,
the Navy pilot never played
blind czar of Id
ransacking the rosebushes
on a false trail,
& we need him at our backs.
What hellhole
do heel spurs rise from?
Pardon my brogue.
All summer the devil
was sharping his blade
on cold black whetstone,
& now this hard rain
falling inside, turning life
into gray moss,
but I still love my jackfruit.
*
Sometimes I hear Roberta
saying, Lawd,
come here, Boy,
& let us talk glory days.
We sit there, ruminating,
wondering why
police would shoot
unarmed Black folks,
gazing at our faces
in the water, as the cork
bobs, & nylon line tightens,
my bone hook
in the throat of a gold-belly
perch big as two
hands, & I feel the river
growing angry,
ready to leap the bank,
ready to rampage
one hundred years in one
night, red
dusk to dawn’s new season.
Copyright © 2022 by Yusef Komunyakaa. Originally published in Poem-a-Day on February 1, 2022, by the Academy of American Poets.
“The speaker in the poem is a white Vietnam veteran whose father was a cover artist. The speaker is getting into his own psyche, not as a psychological rendering, but as an exploration.”
—Yusef Komunyakaa